Ass between two chairs

Biased sense of belonging

Country where I was born

Country where I immigrated

My heart is split in two

Here everything has to be done and in France, everything has to be consolidated.

Everything needs to be rethought

How to make the right choice

And leave one of these two countries behind

Doubts, continual questions,

While my fears paralyze me, my culture calls me

We tend to believe that the grass is greener elsewhere.

But it's really just a decoy.

I have experienced some very good things as well as some very complicated things.

2 years of Spanish hostel, chaining evenings, weekends, activities

But the honeymoon phase is well and truly over.

Friends leaving one after the other, over the years

A new social circle to constantly recreate.

The feeling of being a little alone begins to creep in,

Illusion that returning home would replace this buried evil.

But as I remember, before I left, I didn't have a very developed social circle either.

And my weekends, I often spent alone too.

I figure that change, getting out of my comfort zone, would do me good.

Feeling of being stagnant for a long time

Sedentary, at home for too long

Covid, you have ruined my social life

Covid, a forced awareness, you have brought about.